IN A SINGLE TWIST

2009-11-30T19:05:00.000+08:00

What did i do wrong? I spend the whole day today crying my eyes out. Just what did i do wrong? I wished i have never known you. You bring me misery and i hope you never existed.

2009-11-10T22:38:00.029+08:00

To my only family,
You guys are the ones who are always there for me supporting me making everything happen giving me everything i want, Thank You for being there. You know i've always loved you. To my Papa no matter how irritating you are I love you. And to my Mama no matter how many times we fight and argue you know i love you a lot a lot. Thank You for making my twenty first a splendid one. To my baby brother, i'll get you a dictionary for your birthday i promise you! It was touching how you wished me happy birthday so early in the morning what with that shy smile and the wish. Ketuk kepala then you know! Thank you for being you.I love you loads loads too.

To my cousins,
You guys know who you are. Thank you so much for enduring the rainy weather and getting all the stuffs ready for my surprise. You people are the first one i saw when i came out and i teared there and then. Ive always had you guys for my birthday and will want to continue to do so in my birthdays to come. I dont know what i will do without you people. I love you with all my heart. Thank You!

To my girlfriends,
You girls will always be my favourite girls. No matter how busy we are, we always make it a point to celebrate each one of our special days together and i love each one of you for that. I cried like a baby when you girls shouted surprise at the top of your lungs in my room and i screamed at the top of my voice because i was so glad you girls are there. Sayang korang!

To my NAFA friends,
I was not able to see some of you but i thank you all for the lovely gift you gave me. I missed you peeps so so much i wished we were all still schooling. Nonetheless we'll meet up real soon. Ps; I wish you guys were here. I love you and i miss you so!

To my boys,
Though i seldom see you guys anymore, it was really a surprise to see you guys just sitting there looking cool outside but actually very happy inside.hahahahahah I started crying once again because i was so surprised to see all of you! Thank You for the birthday present. I kept giggling to myself whenever i thought of how the bunch of you went to source for my birthday present. Imagine 11 guys crowding over one bag. Hilarious! Thank you guys for being there! I heart you people!

To my friends,
Thank You for all the wishes and gifts and so many more things. My handphone was being a jerk that time, actually, it has always been that way thus i was not able to receive some of the messages nor read it and im sorry if all the messages sent were not replied but i still felt your love. So here i am spreading it all back to the lovely lovely ones. Thank you so much. It's always the thought that counts and i love each one of you for that.

To my one and only FS
I saved the best for the last. You who have always endured my wrath. Thank you for planning everything. You made it all happen. And im sorry if i was being an ass at some point of time, ok well most point of time, but i thank you for tolerating me. The flowers you sent me at work was embarrassing but it made me smile and i love the moment when we met after i ended work and we couldnt stop laughing because i was trying to hide the humongous flower underneath my armpit and my sweater. And how you surprised me with a brownie making everyone else sing along and i was too tired and embarrassed, yet again. We're always fighting but youre always the one who's giving in, but i would also like to think that i give in half the time too. You must be rolling your eyes when you read that part. hahahah. Now we'll go spend the lovely vouchers my friends got for me okay. Im asking you out this coming saturday so you better make yourself free. Die die also better be free before i scream at the top of my lungs. I love you with all my heart and soul FS. <3

2009-10-27T21:30:00.024+08:00

HAPPY DUA PULUH SATU BIRFDAY SYAZ!

"It's friendship, friendship, just a perfect blendship.
When other friendships soon forget,
ours will still be great.
Loddle doddle chuck chuck chaa."
-Judy Garland

2009-10-11T22:00:00.009+08:00

Goodbye dear dear weekends. Here comes the dreadful weekdays.):

2009-10-04T12:10:00.014+08:00

Eid Mubarak!

2009-09-30T22:23:00.014+08:00

The night has never been enough. Let's party at the top till someone has to spoil all these.

2009-09-12T12:28:00.010+08:00

These are simply to die for.

Off to johore in a bit. Glad to be out of SG even if it's just well you knw, near.-_-
Final exam this coming Mon and im stressed out like a dinosaur.
But on a sunshine cheery note, am off to Bali in Novemberrrr woo hoooooooooooo
Shopped like a mad woman these past few days my mom has been making a lot of noises am gg to sell off my clothes. And Haiqel is going to be my model since well my brother cannot be bothered to entertain me. Fret not, he will be the one who holds the black curtain btw.whuahuahuahua

Anddddd, i went to the comex fair ystrday. I wantd to buy my canon ixus bt this irritating ah ma kept hogging the camera. Was fed up by thn because i dont think she even understands the functions of the camera but for i dont know what reasons she was adamant not to let go of the camera. Stormed off to the upper level whr i went crazy over computer games. I saw the sims 3!! Saw it but was retailing at 56.90. Pondered, pondered over whther i should i get it but after weighing the pros and cons i doubt ill even have the time to play it since most of my time would be spent looking at the Singapore River which is overlooking the Singapore flyer as well as the barrage.

Ooohh wanted to head hunt for the perfect outfit for the dinner and dance this coming fri when FS reminded me i still have this dress which i havent worn,price tag still intact! so yes i will be wearing that. I wantd to buy heelssss but again he reminded me of i dont knw how many heels i have back home. He says save, i say spoilsport. And whoever goes to work to an office wearing Vans. I need shoesssss. Heels are painful. I cannot run when i am late and i walk like a penguin.

2009-09-03T21:23:00.006+08:00

Today we had call stimulation. Yes sti-mu-la-tion. No wonder the guys laughed so hard and then i realised it's si-mu-la-tion instead. Most of my today was spent looking out the window towards the singapore river letting my thoughts run freely. In short, we call it day dreaming. It's been awhile since i listened to the boy with the guitar. Work has been tiring and stressful. Mostly they give you chunks of information and then expect you to remember everything. Aside from that, the week before we had a cross cultural theme where we had to don cross cultural costume. Next week the theme will be Formula One. I am feeling leather jumpsuits and helmet plus the shades. Hurhur.

Back to my thoughts now. It wondered to the point where i had asked myself when was the last time i had an adventure. Think, trekking in the jungle, too bad here in SG we call it Bukit Timah Nature Reserve. That's the closest 'jungle' we have. Well, sort of. I miss the times where i am a teenager still under curfew, still breaking little rules and just having fun. I realised too that i didnt want to grow up too soon. If only time could stand still. I remembered doing insane things like being nancy drew for a day or even pretended to be ghost busters. Sweet memories. And then before i realised(again this word appear), I am booked till the 31st of October. It seems that my weekends will no longer cease to exist. Yeah, freelancing my toes.): I want spa.
I need spa!

Oh.
And today i laughed so hard till my stomach hurt and cheeks sore. I kind of liked today despite the awful and terrible parts caused by you-know-who.
Today, please come more often because, you know... it's been a while. :D

2009-08-13T21:31:00.047+08:00

& so the past month flew by like a breeze. I'll miss the trips we have to the toilet just to rest our feet or the long breaks we have at mos burger or yoshinoya or the mini shopping spree and mr tight pants whom we are all fighting over except of course he chose the obvious.*rolls eyes* hahaha i knw the wave and the nod is a killer uh, im sure FS agrees with me despite the disapproving glare he sometimes shot my way. & the weird way some people pronounced some of the brands that i couldnt help but laughed which i sometimes cover it up with a very unconvincing cough. Ohhh and the free flow of burger king, it's a wonder why FS calls me plum now. So real work starts next monday and i forgot what time i should report. work hasnt even started and i have this really, really bad feeling.

On a brighter-er note, I miss everyone!

2009-08-06T11:17:00.030+08:00

Life? Tiring so far but nonetheless it keeps me sane. Been pretty busy with so many things and im an Auntie! omg. FS has been making me laugh in the train and everywhere that i am going to miss him terribly if he goes to NS. Yesterday i tried on my graduation gown at home and stupefy-ed everyone in the house except my brother who seems immune to my spells so i tried to confund him and it worked!! He hasn't said a word ever since. I am happy and happy am i. (: I miss my girlfriends but was sooo glad to see them over the weekends even if it was just for awhile. I am missing Haseenah and Zub who i have not seen since that time.

I miss FS too even though im always seeing him. But as time passes we both know that time spent will be limited and less and it wont be the same as now where we have time wrapped around our fingers and we can spend hours having train rides and laughing at the people and then spending quality time in the library reading Harry Potter side by side sneaking sweets in our mouth and then coughing till we have goosebumps and then laughing at the other when one has a sorethroat and the voice seems high and shrilly. I am going to miss those times. Come 17th August, when work commences and you your career. I love you and will always think of you. As for now, i've got to start practising Occlumency so my mother wouldnt know what i have up my sleeves. She always always seem to know what im thinking. Goodbye for now Good people!

2009-07-10T14:03:00.004+08:00

Dearest hair, please grow longer and will you please, please behave because i have no idea what to do with you already. ugh

2009-06-30T10:15:00.019+08:00

I miss my brother. I miss his quiet presence and annoying the hell out of him with my bimbotic questions. Home is eerily quiet. I am planning a holiday for myself. The weekend was good. I caught Transformers yesterday and it was awesome. I love their quirky humour. I laughed till my stomach hurt. This week will be the week i meet my girls but i forgot production resumes so i am going to be so busy the whole week and i wont have weekends to myself either. I still havent received the photos from Sheri's house party. And i miss NAFA. I miss my classmates i miss Jasmine, i miss Gen, I miss Fatin and I miss Sheri and i havent heard from Leticia for the longest time! I hope everyone's doing okay. I am going to be seeing Gen everyday for this coming week. hehe.
FS has been pestering me to jog with him but i am too lazy trying to burn my fats that i always have excuses after excuses lined up for him. Zoo was fun. FS finally introduced me to all his friends. I am especially quite fond of his friends with the pink buttocks. I think they're hot showing off their butts like that. I am quite jealous too because they have so much confidence just walking around baring their bodies like that, what with the hot sunny weathers nowadays. I think that's a pretty fantastic idea. If only my buttocks were as pink as theirs. The other week we went to see eskimos and my nose couldnt stop dripping. Yesterday we went to the aiport because he was flying off to Canada but sadly he missed his flight. Poor boy. And right now I am waiting for mommy to be home but i dont see or hear her footsteps at all. So i think i better get ready and off to tuition i will.

Come home safe and sound and bring me lots of goodies. I heard the night market there is great. I miss thailand.

2009-06-22T12:22:00.006+08:00

Me: I found an agent already.
FS: Hah really ah? That's good.
Im feeling a bit elated now.
Me: Ya ya her name's Lina.
FS: Lina?? Lina at Jobstreet?

He looks at me shocked, then burst out laughing. To think the walk in the park was supposed to be romantic. How am i supposed to know that that's the computer's default name. Cheat my feelings only. Haiya technology and its wonders. ppffttt

ps//ouuhhh and to Daddy-O Happy daddies day!! Hope you like the handphone hor.

2009-06-17T12:16:00.007+08:00

When youre stuck in between what you want and what you think you want, then its really difficult. Why be unhappy when you can free yourself from everything, i once told someone. But maybe saying it is easier said than doing it. Tough, i know. So what's before and what's after? What are promises made and what are promises being kept? What is right and what is wrong? What is it that you want and what is it that you think you want? What you think you should do or what you think you shouldnt? What if you want to be free but you think you cant? What if you know what you want but you dont know what to do? So, when do you tell yourself to stop?

This is me, fickle.

2009-06-10T21:44:00.002+08:00

I love the blog. My only wish was that there would be more entries. As much as how i would ask you crazy mad things like alight run to the next stop and board the bus again every single time im angry with you, you would do some of those things with no questions asked maybe just a quick smile before you entertain my demands. And then when i think you would really do it, ill run after you like a mad woman screaming your name while you run with all your heart trying to beat the bus and then you board and realize im not there and frantic, we both would start calling thus making the phone engaged. But everything seems to end really well when you wrap me in your arms and massage my leg and ill scratch your back. Then the whole cycle begins again and i wonder when will it ever end.

no doubt i love you too. (:

2009-06-09T22:52:00.007+08:00

Who can explain the Infinite in words?

2009-06-07T23:24:00.004+08:00

Youre always going away. I hate it.

2009-06-04T23:53:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i think youre such a great pretender. You make people think youre an angel. Maybe at times you are but how you really are, that's one true fact which you hide really well. You make everyone think youre the "good person" when in fact youre dirty. Ive hated you from the start. You make me so sick i feel like throwing up whenever i look at you. You make me clenched my fists when i see you. You make me become a horrible person. Dont think im a pushover because right now im telling you. Youve underestimated me.

2009-05-29T01:31:00.003+08:00

I guarantee that we'll have tough times

and I guarantee that at some point one
or both of us will want to get out.
Because that's what we have- a love hate relationship.(:

Goodnight world.

2009-05-27T17:43:00.001+08:00

I want my Prince Charming. No, not you.
The real one.

2009-05-26T14:11:00.020+08:00

So gay.
Happy Birthday Daddy Dearest.

2009-05-24T20:33:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i think you dont practice what you preach.

2009-05-24T02:16:00.009+08:00

Down memory lane.

2009-05-22T00:04:00.003+08:00

So, tell me how can i not love him?

2009-05-18T11:58:00.004+08:00

If you want to lie you lie it well. You dont expect me to lie for you and then when everything falls down, they asked me. Then what am i supposed to say? What? I dont know. Cause if me covering up for you means getting myself in trouble and getting YOU in trouble then dont lie. And, why linger i want to ask. Sometimes when i see you, i feel like smacking your head and slamming you into the wall and asking you to wake up and not mop around. If one door closes, then what about the other doors? Ten others open. All you have got to do is be patient. Sometimes they asked, and most of the times i have no answers to give them. And by the way, this is not the way to get attention. This is fucking pathetic. If going about the softer way does not work for you then i'll go about the harsh way. If this feels like a slap to you then that's how i want it to be. Dont go around thinking that by acting this way everything is going to be fine. Well, it does not. People worry that's why they asked. I dont like you being rude to either one of them. They asked you you answer nicely. I will not tolerate this. Trust me. You would not want to unleash the tiger. GRRRRRRR (ok this absolutely does not make me fierce but wth)
Anyways.
You better listen good cause ive got my eyes on you.

2009-05-15T12:38:00.011+08:00

So ive been busy with these. Ubin was fun albeit all those mozzie bites. I had a good laugh when the make up artist made FS and Teng up. It was hilarious. And then it was my turn and they said i looked like fatimah rocker, thanks uh.

Hip Hopera, the much awaited production was fabulous! Well, what can i say when there are 6 girls with a camera. I cannot wait for tonight. I'll be doing front of house and oh my can Marvel and Marc sing. Gobi was comedian. They were so natural! I left the performance feeling all light headed and hyper. I hope my heels wont kill me tonight.

2009-05-14T11:37:00.004+08:00

We were walking when suddenly someone strong carried me. I was up high above and could literally see the whole world. As i was swung around, i giggled uncontrollably, bursting into loud gasps and suddenly as i turn around i saw someone, someone unfamiliar, a sense of deja vu creeping in and i realised who that person was. I reached out only to grasp thin air. And i woke up with a start only realising that it was a dream. And the only question that lingered was,
why?

2009-05-07T21:03:00.005+08:00

Mr. Phillips:
How should I put this delicately, Mike? Your designs are from another time.
Mike Brady:
That's kind of you to say, Mr. Phillips. I've always thought of my style as classic as well.

chants, one more paper one more paper one more paper and it'll be the last time im going to class. no more classes no more mr foo. no more tests. im feeling chocolate right now, whatever that means. i absolutely cannot wait for tmr's paper to be over and done with so i can go screaming around the foyer all the while simply cannot believing that its over and then there's the batam/carousel thing we've all been planning.
and.
ive got so much time on my fingers. i can feel it that i can almost kiss it.
MUWAHHH

2009-05-06T09:42:00.002+08:00

Just a short quick entry before im off to take my exam.
School will be over, soon! yeah! And then i'll have to stress over what im gonna do about my life. Ugh! I've got so many things to say but suddenly my mind is in a state of shock. I am missing so many people right now. And lastly, i am in love with Edward Cullen. I want to be a vampire. Somebody bite me pleaseeeeeee! On a cheery note,
Good Morning World!

PS;Shasha, Woohooooooo! Drive me yo.

2009-04-24T19:14:00.010+08:00

Schoolly molly school.

I still cannot register for my exams i have no idea why. It is getting on my nerves. I can just feel my blood going up up up and about to burst. I had to call the lousy admin staff only to be told to keep trying??!! My daddy keeps making funny faces at me. He's in a good mood and i want a new handphone. :(

I bumped into Daphne the other day. I was soooooooo happy since it has been eons since i last saw her that i practically jumped for joy to give her a big huggggg :)) My mood has been pretty sour lately,can i blame the weather please? Time is ticking. I am panicking. School is going to end pretty soon and my heart is getting heavier day by day. I once had a dream. I am torn in between two worlds. My desire and the right thing. Today i sit back and wonder why is everything becoming so fast paced.

So tell me, people are getting too curious, no?

2009-04-15T22:41:00.007+08:00

It's just less than a month to go.
Deadlines to meet, productions to run and grad party to plan.

I can't recall a better day.(:

2009-04-07T22:08:00.013+08:00

Like rainbow, we jumped played teased. Over the moon and everything seemed so bright and colourful. The world a series of tv classics replaying over and over again. Right now, all i want is to press the forward button, not stop nor rewind.

2009-03-30T12:33:00.008+08:00

I should be doing my work.
Instead...

Internet should not exist thy reckon.

2009-03-26T11:29:00.020+08:00

Nafa over the years.

I love you all!

2009-03-18T22:29:00.005+08:00

I see the sun rays.

2009-03-15T13:21:00.007+08:00

Simps was madness yesterday. I had the urge to throw my empty can at this particular person sitting at the table in front of us. He was spared only because, and i repeat only because FS soothed me like crazy. Well, if FS was to be as irritating as him, my can would have had landed on his face too! So anyways, Chinatown was great. Omg i love looking at all things colourful. Aside from the boring super fast talks, i love writing little notes to FS and drawing all those mini pictures that made us giggle like secondary school kids and had us whispering like kids afraid to be caught by the teacher. And the other day, standing in the slight drizzle with my new brolly, FS ran up to me and we shared one quick kiss before he had to go off to work and i to school. And i thought things like these only happen in the movies. My Saturday was fantastic.
How's yours?:D

2009-03-10T22:47:00.021+08:00

Imelda's Boys was,
purrrrfeccttttt.

2009-03-02T11:56:00.002+08:00

Because this is the boy who makes my day twice a week with his unnecessary absurd questions that will leave me on the floor gasping for breath and bursting into fit of giggles, have me smack myself because he sent me a text message saying 'Nare Nare'(i still have no idea what that means) and then telling me he's in school and all the while i've been messaging him. Imagine my horror!

And then, leave me a nervous wreck this coming month.
-__-

2009-02-23T11:18:00.001+08:00

Was it purely innocently coincidental?

2009-02-23T10:54:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Sometimes, I dont know whether to believe these quizzes or not.

Jason Mraz

2009-02-18T12:36:00.005+08:00

Because i'll always love the boy with the guitar.
:)

2009-02-16T18:17:00.002+08:00

Have you ever had someone who shares a strong bond with you besides your family members? I do. And i'm thankful for that but as we all know, you can never get the best of both worlds. Things differ environment changes but i'm glad that once upon a time i knew someone like you.(:

"I'll be happier if i get you. Yep, You."
To The One Above, I need patience and strength. Lots of them.

more than anything

2009-02-15T20:55:00.004+08:00

It didnt matter to you that i woke you up constantly albeit the ridiculous timings i called you at sometimes. You would still answer it without any complaints and soothe me when i tell you of my nightmares. And after all my crazy mood swings, with me throwing tantrums and not talking to you or sometimes diverting your calls to your number or to anywhere else for that matter, you even wrote a poem about it. And it's crazy how you would still piggyback me no matter how many things you're carrying or even if your back aches after soccer and how you would swoop me up in your arms in front of everyone else and have me screaming yelling at you to put me down or when we're in the middle of a heated arguement and suddenly a song was being played on air and we would in turn try to hide our smiles but end up yelling at each other in the midst of our laughter. Sometimes baby, you make it so impossible to be angry with you.
Note: only SOMETIMES.(hahahaha!)
Happy lovers day, love(:
*HUGS*

we were strangers.

2009-02-11T23:08:00.007+08:00

He believed it all started out with this one kiss. I keep telling him to stop dreaming.

HAPPY SEVENTH FS.

Playmates

2009-02-02T23:48:00.004+08:00

Hard to breathe,
feels like floating
So full of love ,
my heart's e x p l o d i n g
Mouth is dry,
hands are shaking
My heart is yours,
for the taking
Acting weird,
not myself
Dancing around,
like the Keebler elf
Finally time,
for this poor shlub.
To know how it feels,
to fall in lub

hahahah this is hilarious.

Light breeze

2009-01-25T00:42:00.014+08:00

It's amazing how low a person can stoop to cover their asses. Anyways. Friday was fantastic. Met FS and we had my fav fried fish soup with yee meeee then we headed down to Thieve's Market where the sun was scorching hot. We wrestled our way there pretending to be tourist and reading our horoscope. Apparently both our lucky number this year is 1. And i had my official opening ceremony for my new brolly but sadly i love the old one wayyyy better.): Couldnt find anything interesting and we were drenched with our own perspiration so we rushed to the nearest airconditioned place and cooled down for awhile before heading down to Dhoby for a movie. And that was when he gasped and i thought my nose was crooked or i lost a tooth cause he was staring at my face with his mouth forming a big O only to realize one side of my earring was gone!!! And it would be a hassle to trace our way back so we headed to Bugis and FS bought for me another pair. Wo si huan hen tuo hen tuo. hehe.

The movie was funny. Mostly i enjoyed the close comfort he gave me. I like how i can put my legs over his and how his arms would always, always find mine. He would then whisper sweet nothings in my ear and usually i would roll my eyes or curse under my breath. Little does he know my heart would do little jumps and leaps and i would have to steady my breathing because i cant breathe when he does things like that. We sat down and talked before making our way back home. Today was spent watching soccer. A fight almost broke out. It would have made my day even interesting then if it did happen. lol. Head down to lau pa sat for satay and we cruised back home. Today was great. Company was great atmosphere was great. I love my family and my brother missed the exit we're supposed to take and my dad did not say anything. Life's unfair. And now, instead of fighting for the com or the phone or the tv or the toilet, i would have to fight with him for the car. ughhhhh irritating much. FS i miss youuuuuuu how?

Temporary Madness

2009-01-21T20:13:00.004+08:00

It feels like someone kicked me in the stomach. It feels like my heart stopped beating.It feels like that dream.You know the one where you're falling and you want so desperately to wake up before you hit the ground, but it's all out of your control.You can't trust anything anymore.No one is who they say they are.Your life is changed forever.And the only thing to come out of the whole ugly experience is no one will ever be able to break my heart like that again.

Will be seeing Dennis in a few minutes time. Now everybody, let's all sigh.

Tuesday mornings

2009-01-20T10:46:00.008+08:00

This is Dennis.

I sent this picture to Twisterella this morning to ask her her opinion and this was how our conversation went.

-=[twisterella]=- says:
u cheeky girl.
;AZRN AZIZ says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
;AZRN AZIZ says:
seriously?
-=[twisterella]=- says:
if u ask me to choose fardhan and gay boy
-=[twisterella]=- says:
i choose fardhan
;AZRN AZIZ says:
why?
-=[twisterella]=- says:
cos he more handsome lah
-=[twisterella]=- says:
and im not into big bods..
-=[twisterella]=- says:
ee
;AZRN AZIZ says:
please okay Dennis doesnt have a big body
;AZRN AZIZ says:
but you think?
;AZRN AZIZ says:
dennis handsome what
-=[twisterella]=- says:
no
-=[twisterella]=- says:
ur bf
-=[twisterella]=- says:
better
-=[twisterella]=- says:
u cheeky
-=[twisterella]=- says:
kesian fardhan

And she linked me this person instead whom she said was better.

heh.

So anyways i decided to tell her about my condition. And this was how the conversation went.

;AZRN AZIZ says:
today im supposed to go to school but im sick
;AZRN AZIZ says:
and stupid fardhan said he hope it's not mentally
;AZRN AZIZ says:
i mean what is that supposed to mean
;AZRN AZIZ says:
just because i told him i giddy not headache
;AZRN AZIZ says:
and my room is like spinning then i see all black
;AZRN AZIZ says:
then he say hopefully it's not mentally sick
;AZRN AZIZ says:
he thinks im mentally unsound
;AZRN AZIZ says:
wth right
-=[twisterella]=- says:
maybe u are
-=[twisterella]=- says:
hahaha
-=[twisterella]=- says:
all black
-=[twisterella]=- says:
but see dennis only drool
-=[twisterella]=- says:
mentally unsound
;AZRN AZIZ says:
haha
;AZRN AZIZ says:
your head
;AZRN AZIZ says:
you're supposed to be siding with me!
;AZRN AZIZ says:
i dont drool
;AZRN AZIZ says:
i just sigh
;AZRN AZIZ says:
hehe
-=[twisterella]=- says:
oh.
-=[twisterella]=- says:
drool
-=[twisterella]=- says:
and sigh
-=[twisterella]=- says:
and get excited over nothing
;AZRN AZIZ says:
not drool
;AZRN AZIZ says:
no saliva also coming out
;AZRN AZIZ says:
hahahah
-=[twisterella]=- says:
if u find one junkie2 guy
-=[twisterella]=- says:
i like
;AZRN AZIZ says:
all junkies are addicts
-=[twisterella]=- says:
how u now? u giddy and see black. u dunno wats happening to u oso!
-=[twisterella]=- says:
how to make my bf look junkie?
;AZRN AZIZ says:
HAHAHAHAHHA

........
Put aside the headaches that's consuming me, i guess my Tuesday morning couldnt get any better. Looks like someone has won the hearts of many. Only i wish, it's my heart that's won over.

hugs and kisses

2009-01-18T18:59:00.004+08:00

FS said, since we didnt get to catch him live the first time round, we'll see him live this time round.Woohoooooooooooo Ahhhhhhhhhh Jason Mraz hereeeeee i comeeeeeeeeeee!! I am this excited!! You know it's funny how my parents seem to want to know about ze love life of my little brother. Note: He's not little anymore and c'mon guys he needs his privacy. And today Daddy the big hearted said, Come let's go out later at night. Is there anything you want? heheheh yeah apparantly there is. I can't decide which one i wanna get though. The dress i've been eyeing for weeks now or the new blazer-like shirt that caught my attention a few days back. Maybe both?

And and yesterday's surprise went well. Okay my brother can be a brat sometimes but we're all glad that Shasha and him got well, surprised. Haha and he said he suspected something because my mother she can never ,never keep it well intact. To think FS, Haiqel and me had to wander around and wait till my brother goes out to come back home and we were hungry wolves. All because my mom said Rezal, can you go get for me aluminium foil? Urghh Pictures later once i get them.

And. Im seeing Dennis in exactly 27 minutes time! Hehe

hmmm

2009-01-18T12:00:00.005+08:00

JM's coming to Singapore in March. How how how??!!

not a girl, not yet a woman

2009-01-15T14:06:00.004+08:00

I am 20 and i am young.
Read it. Get it? Now, digest it!

//this entry is as redundant as it can get but wth it is my blog.

Initiative

2009-01-10T13:00:00.005+08:00

no, i do not want try i want do.
no, i do not want good, i want best.
no, i do not want some, i want all.
no, i do not want less, i want more.
no, i do not want something, i want everything.
so you, up for it ey?

Monster

2009-01-09T15:25:00.008+08:00

Hotmail's crazy. I cant seem to check my mails but it's all organised now and very, very tidy. me like!hehe Ysterday was one hell of a crazy day. Well, it has been pretty crazy recently. haha But but. Everything's going to be fine now. Things will pretty much be back to normal, i hope. Im still considering what to do to my hair. I want highlights. Thought of going to the hairdresser's with Jasmineee today but things cropped up so next time then.

I was going through old old photos which made me smile. It's amazing how fast we grow and how super fast time flies. Some pictures when i look at it, i can still recall what were the events that happened why my smile was that way or what made me look elsewhere or why my eyes was red and smiles uneven. I still remember.(: Amazing, really. Today i ended my day by singing seven songs with only 3 being heard and i slept like a baby. Think twice Azreen thinnnnnnnkkkkkkkk twiceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee oh i just realised; Stupid people say stupid things.
Anyhoos, Good Morning world!!!

take the world for a spin

2009-01-08T11:53:00.005+08:00

The first week of 2009 has been tremendously love-lieeee except for a few little glitches. The following week hasnt been that great but howells it's only the 4th day of the week. Hoping my weekends gonna be a blast.hee. So school's starting next week i can hardly wait to be back in the familiar surroundings. I miss everyone!!!!!! At least the company will take my mind off certain things. this is so good i want school to start like, tmr. Sometimes i think im crappy but who isnt?

Anyways, my face feels so dry and my skin's peeling. It's all the damn swimming under the scorching hot sun. Ughhh No matter how much gob of lotion i put it is still peeling. ahhh i give up already! Sleep hasnt been that good. I always wake up with a heavy heart and my head feels like it's about to explode. I can feel it expanding and expanding till i explode. Have you ever had that feeling when you think that your life's pretty much how you wanted it to be and then suddenly it takes a surprise turn and leaves you dumbfounded and you have no idea how the hell to make it right? And at times you wonder maybe it's just you? Just how cracked your thinking might be. Pathetic, much. Alright today is going to be a good day. I just have to keep telling myself that and think of everything niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and goooooooddddddddddd.((:

..........But it just suck if you're feeling like fuck.

Just like magnet, we attract despite the differences

2009-01-04T16:15:00.003+08:00

i love cruising down the highway arms intertwined fingers interlocked and legs all over. Contented much!(:

cosmic

2009-01-02T15:01:00.004+08:00

I like beginnings cause they're so full of promises.

two oh oh nine.

2009-01-01T23:21:00.014+08:00

Happy New Year!
I rang in the new year with lots of fireworks.hehe
I really believe the best is yet to come.
Ah, 2009. (=

JAPAN

2008-12-29T22:31:00.002+08:00

You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone else's life, and not even know it.(:

//edit. The world is small. I keep seeing things i never want to see. Howells who am i to say? Technology's a bitch.

still.

2008-12-20T12:25:00.008+08:00

I miss the boy.

Serendipity

2008-12-15T14:24:00.007+08:00

Where will i be 10 years from now?

Like CBD.

2008-12-13T17:30:00.003+08:00

Im just so sick. Sick of waiting. Sick of being frustrated over something i shouldnt even get frustrated with in the first place. Just plain sick sick sick. Ugh, Saturdays and me. They just dont come in well in my dictionary.

Somebody please. Just whisk me away. Far far away.

uh-oh.

2008-12-12T15:38:00.001+08:00

Im dead. Im bursting. What should i do?

Because you're You.

2008-12-10T23:06:00.005+08:00

My boyfriend can be pretty daft sometimes. You know macam the tak betul kind? Today we went swimming. He was excited. He kept telling me it's his first time taking the LRT. So we stood at the front and held on to the railings like two idiots and looked outside. Suddenly he was at a corner talking to himself or maybe to his imaginary friend idk. I just shook my head and continued looking outside. Then there were times where he said the cat was a jaguar. I cannot explained the way he run here but, trust me it is exceptional. His arms flailing at his side, already lanky he is so stiff i sometimes wonder whether all those shufflings he did last time was any help to loosen this guy up.And you should look at the way he smiles. He has no idea what smiling is. Also you wouldnt want to know how blur and nonsensical he can get at times. At times we'll argue because i think he sings out of tune but then he'll argue back and said i dont know how the song is like. But the fact is we both are tone deaf so whatever tune we sing is definitely out of tune.

But amidst all that, i love him just as much. Cause all those dont matter. Everything's alright when we're together. The world stops spinning, you get breathless, the butterflies doing its work in your stomach, the way your heart skipped two beats when you see him at that far corner waiting patiently for you and that's when you know that deep down he's everything you need.

Happy 5th Boyfriend(:

HAPPY B BDAE HAIQEL!!

2008-12-09T12:56:00.004+08:00

And so Teng turned 13 on the 2nd. This week has pretty much fly past so quickly i cannot recall what i've been doing. Yeah, my memory's that bad. I was at SP making coffee for ministers with Syaz. That was insane. We were so clumsy and i was trying so hard to make the spade shape and the heart which turned out pretty bad but i refused, just simply refused to say i did not make it. Well at least by the end of the week i could pretty much form the shape of a tree or so i think which was better than nothing. heh. So we cabbed down to Simpang Bedok and by then everyone had already finished their dinner. The cab purposely drove the long way. If i was in that cab alone, i'll be shouting at the cab driver. lol. So bye bye to the goats and all. Aidiladha was pretty much the same old same old. Visit Yayi first then to Grams place where everyone was there sleeping. That happens almost every year. And finally the start of a brand new week. I hope something exciting's going to happen. I'm finally watching a movie with FS and his lil bro after soooooooooooo long.

I loveeeeeeeee holidays.

Sometimes it feels like it was yesterday

2008-12-08T10:58:00.005+08:00

You can find the good in anybody if you just give them a chance, benefit of the doubt. Sometimes people disappoint you, sometimes they surprise you, but you never really get to know them until you listen for what's in their heart.

You taught me that.(:

You and me everyday.

2008-12-07T03:05:00.005+08:00

Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch.
Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Allie: So what?
Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? But don't you take the easy way out.

I think im crazy. Yeah crazy for you.

Everything positive is YOU

2008-11-27T08:56:00.004+08:00

Incapable of doing interesting stuff.
Yeah, that's how you view me.
That's why i say time and again, you don't really know me..... yet.

Let's play a game.

2008-11-24T22:48:00.004+08:00

Person 1:
You have always been the one who was there for me and still is.The only one who understands me most. No matter how we used to argue, you'll still be the one person i run to whenever i encounter problems. I bet it's going to continue even after im married with two kids. I don't say it enough but i love you so so much.

Person 2:
It's funny how sometimes i feel like pushing you in the middle of the road so that you'll get bang down by a car but also be the one who jumps to your rescue and makes sure that no harm befalls you. Ironic ey? It's crazy how we managed to work things out. But, i love you all the same, from the bottom of my heart.

Person 3:
Sometimes i feel like being mean all of a sudden and say NO to you when i have been saying yes to you for, say, all of life? Forever and ever that has always been your mantra. Sometimes boy, you've got to learn to let go or maybe do something about it and stop it with maintaining your cool image. Girls just dont get that y'know? Ok so maybe i don't. I dont like it and you can have anything you want.

Person-s 4:
Always the people who would always be there for me come what may. You can call it lesbian love even though my love is divided into four. I love them and i would do so in the years to come. Have been now for eight years and running. Remember how we used to talk about growing up? That no matter who gets married first, we have to be the bridesmaid of everyone.

Person 5:
Our history goes way back. It started out as a wrong identity or maybe you've always secretly knew it was me but refused to admit it. Always the sweet one. Things never can be like last time, but you know i hope you know that im always here whenever you need me to be because my dear, im your friend and forever i will be.

Person 6:
I never asked you to like anything about my life but sometimes you know you've got to place yourself in my shoes and see it through my eyes. Now, everything's so awkward.

Person 7:
Sometimes i don't know whether the current things that happened is the cause of it but you make me wonder at times what is so wrong. I wish you'll tell and all the same i wish you won't. I'd like to think im your worst nightmare.

Person 8:
You seemed like a person from my dream. The one i used to have during my teenage years and when you come closer everything starts getting fuzzy. Im happy with the way my life turns out now. Im glad more than anything i have everything i could ever asked for. But i do still wonder you know. It's like all of a sudden everything went poof.

Person 9:
I used you as my password for most of my online stuff. Because you seem to have the answers for whatever question i have in mind. I look up to you because i think you're cool and confident and i love you all the same.

Person-s 10:
The ones who thought me that facial products is a must. And also the ones who taught me i can never live without a hair dryer. Not forgetting the countless loads of advice whenever it comes to life. Never a doubt, they always seem to find me my laughter back. I love yous so much as i love my hair dryer now. I wish upon two stars that you'll get the happy ending you both greatly deserve.

a figment of my imagination

2008-11-22T16:17:00.004+08:00

He leans down and points, but the trees are like the legs of tall people i can't see around. Do you see it yet he asked me. I shook my head. Even if i could see it, i would have told him i couldn't. He picks me up and puts me on his shoulder. The pond. Can you see the pond he said. From up here i can. It is a piece of sky, lying on the ground. When Heaven breaks, who fixes it?

you don't understand

2008-11-21T13:57:00.001+08:00

you're too good to be true=)

2008-11-14T00:33:00.005+08:00

You know i'll miss you the most when im away.
I'll miss your tickles, your laughter, your off key singing,
your hugs or the car rides to nowhere or how we seem to take the buses and end up at the other end of Singapore. Or how you'd piggyback me during the walk back home.
I'll miss the way you carry me or how you'll wrestle me and i get breathless from laughing too much. I'll miss our late night talks that always seem to end with us sleeping with the phone by our ears.
I'll miss everything about you.
Take good care boyfriend. (:

ps:I LOVE YOU

MY SURPRISEEEE WITH MY FAV GIRLSSSS

2008-11-13T00:14:00.025+08:00

Thank you girls for the presents!! I love ittttttttttt:D:D:D
And and the surprise couldnt came at a better time.
Oh i just realize something.
I need a rubix cube! HAHAHAHAH(inside joke)
I LOVE YOUUUUU GIRLSSSS

now and then

2008-11-11T22:17:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, i went to school at 8 only to realize that my paper starts at 10.
Yesterday, i almost burnt my cousin's place down because i do not know how to light up the damn candles.
Yesterday, i had breakfast with jasmine.
Yesterday, i skipped because i wanted to grow taller.
Yesterday, i cleaned my room only to mess it up again.
Yesterday, i screamed so loud because i went out of the lift without looking up and almost bang into this lady. She looked very scary.
Today, im not supposed to be blogging about yesterday.
Today, i laughed so hard till i got stitches because FS drew my legs hands and arms with pens and marker. Luckily i was covered from head to toe.
Today, my body is aching. Apparently this magnetic mattress my mommy bought is not of help even though she says it is.
Today, im supposed to be studying but because im so happyyyyyyy that tmr is going to be the second last paper i am slacking a teeny bit.
Okay enough about yesterday and today.
NOW, i am going to revise Marketingggggggg
Woo hoooo i cannot wait for exams to be overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

An apple a day

2008-11-07T08:40:00.023+08:00

Being a part of this has been so so so much fun. :D

My big two zero surprise-S

2008-11-04T00:38:00.045+08:00

It happened on a Saturday. I was complaining to FS i find everyone acting weird but i swear i did not suspect anything. He kept saying i was paranoid and i really believed him. To think he's even involved! It was a really great surprise! Really! I enjoyed myself! It's nice to see everyone there! *scrreams* im too excited to even put it into words! HAHAHA

The way everyone was huddled at the corner of the room and started popping the poppers and shouted surprise when i entered was really a sight to behold. It is a pity they did not take pictures of that! Aunty Saadiah handed me and FS the mike and we had to sing My Heart. OMG, that was embarrassing.

Even Seri and Yan came! Thank youuuuuu

She called me on the day itself asking me whether im going out or not. Pretending nothing is even happening. hahahah when i came, she said, your zouk where? zouk here ah. hahahah

I call thee the Three Musketeers.

I haven't seen them for the longest time!

She, who made everything happened. Hahaha She was really the weird one. Seriously. Thinking back, it was really funny. Thank you Mama!!!

I want to work with you!

Hyperballad sang mimpi manis. Ewahhh hahahah

I was getting ready to blow the candles...

So i blow...

And i blow.... and blow....

And i gave up. They tricked me. The fire will never die no matter how hard and how strong i blow.

Then i had to hit something till it break cause my aunty and mommy said there's money inside. They think im a two year old instead of twenty lah.

I made a fool out of myself. I was hitting air you see. Cause i was blindfolded. I only hear laughters and laughters and people not telling me where the hell to hit.

I saw her online and was complaining to her telling her everyone abandoned me. I thought it was weird why she was logged on to her msn when she's supposed to be working. She wasn't working at all infact. She took the day off for meeee! Evil! I believed you okay! And Nisa rushed from work to here. Poor girl, she didnt even sleep comfortably. I love you both!!!

Mark was hilarious. HAHAHA he didnt even know what i was talking about. Blur lah you. Lucky your acting skills was good. thanks for being there! (:

Thank you Aunty for the cake! Nice lah.

On the day of my birthday itself, I spent it with FS. :D
He did the sweetest thing ever! It was the most romantic thing someone has ever done for me. I didnt know how to react thus pardon me for my lack of vocab.(: It was really so so sweet. My stupid camera died on me thus the lack of pictures. Thank youuuuuu,ilyyyyyyyyyy:D:D:D

I am going to Phuket with Double N next week.
OMG.
Thank you people for the wishes, presents and all!!!!!!!
i'll try to upload the video my classmates did. This Fatin had to spoil everything by saying something at the end. Now, how to crop that last part, anyone?

some things about school

2008-11-03T19:10:00.005+08:00

OMG.
I know nothing. I see nothing. I hear nothing.
I can only look in awe and just breathe.
Whatever it is, i cannot wait for this sem to end.

To think im so out of touch because the stupid laptop created problems for me, yet again.
oh wells. School politics. What can i say?

This is really, just great.

You never know when you're making a memory

2008-11-01T12:42:00.021+08:00

It was her 20th birthday. We surprised her. She was too embarrassed to admit she liked the surprise so by showing her 'fake' anger, she decided to take it out on the cake and murdered it.
If you're touched, just admit it. To hell with your ego can. We love you Syaz.

At the end of the day, the fact that we show up for one another, in spite of our differences, no matter what we believe, is reason enough to keep believing.

The person you are

2008-10-22T19:35:00.002+08:00

Albert Camus once wrote, “Blessed are the hearts that can bend, for they shall never be broken.” But I wonder, if there's no breaking, then there's no healing. And if there's no healing, then there's no learning. And if there's no learning, then there's no struggle. But struggle is a part of life. So must all hearts be broken? I'm struggling a bit, I guess that's what happens when you fall in love.

linger

2008-10-17T22:36:00.019+08:00

You know when someone asked you. Why do you love me? And sometimes there are so many reasons why but you just dont know how to explain it so all you wish to say is why is one plus one equals to two? Because, one plus one equals to two and there's no reason for it because it just is. If you try to explain what love is, then wouldn't it lose all its romanticism? Isn't love just love? That natural wonderful feeling that comes invading in your heart when you least expect it. That loving someone because of who he is and how he makes your heart flutters more important. You don't need a reason why, you just need to feel.(:

//The past two days have been a bit crazy. Im glad weekends are near so that'll mean i get to sleep in and wake up late. I guess this weekend im gonna take my cam out for a short trip since it has been eons since i last use it. I feel kinda bad y'know. It has been on my study table for quite some time collecting dust. The school system pretty much sucked. First i get debarred then i dont and after i got all relieved and giggly and excited, i got an sms saying i am debarred, again. What luck. Went to Tin's house to practice my lines only to get all ticklish cause i sounded so flat so we gave up and did a bit of sorting out of notes on Tin's part and i just checked my mail trying to re-organize the messy folders. I give up. I need a P.A, like seriously. Exams are creeping near. Ughhhh

To Chen Si Wei; ALL THE BESTTTTTT RUN LIKE YOU'VE NEVER RAN BEFORE!!!

Basic kindergarten psychology

2008-10-14T22:15:00.002+08:00

"You were wanting to kiss me all night?"

"Yes."

"Even when you were yelling at me."

"Especially when I was yelling at you."

"So... is this... some sort of... recent new development in your life?"

"Wanting to kiss you? No. It's sort of always there... like...white noise, or... the secret service or the threat of nuclear war, for that matter. Just something you get used to."

They happen to be boys.

2008-10-10T23:25:00.002+08:00

Like it or not. I hate seeing things that make your heart suddenly dropped to the floor and every great thing that happened for the past few days all evaporate into thin air. It just makes you wonder sometimes whether wonderful times like those felt like it even happen at all. It just leaves you breathless gasping for air.

I need a panadol, pronto.

flower show riots

2008-09-27T20:07:00.012+08:00

I decided to blog because i am waiting for that idiot.

My week has been okay. Hyatt is fun. School has been crazy fun.

Ohhh Damai is so cosy i absolutely love going there after work.

ok so that idiot has already called. till then.

Raya is cominggggg, i am so excitedddddddd

:D:D:D:D

fingers crossed, heads bowed low

2008-09-21T01:05:00.010+08:00

Me: Khye, you see you see. I look like a rooster.

(sweeping my hair into a mohawk style)

He looks at me with his eyebrows raised and said,

"Ya. You look like cock."

...

I had difficulties breathing after that.

because you're so blur you're always making me laugh

2008-09-19T11:32:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK IDA.
you know i love you a lot!
you said my wishes never fail to make you cry but your reply always touches my heart too.
things are going to be different now that you're married, but meeting you yesterday felt like old times. you look so happy you're practically glowing!
Last year, im always wishing you to have fun and teasing you, asking you to get married.
this year, well, things are different so my wishes will also be different.
May you have lots of cute babies!!
I know you'll be a great mom and i, in turn will be a very fantastic aunt as with all your other siblings and cousins too. only i think i'll be the best. whahahah
and i miss abg saiful too. in pictures he is always smiling looking so happy i want to kick his butt.
the first time you introduced him to us, he was so damn kental can. tapered pants and beetle bug shoes.hahahahahahah
it's been a long and sweet ride for the both of you.
married life suits the both of you.
may you have everything you hope for in your life. Insyaallah.
i cant wait to see your wedding montage!
no matter where you are, i'm always praying for your well being(:
*HUGS*

Rub me the right way.

2008-09-14T22:57:00.010+08:00

When you try your best but you don't succeed. When you get what you want but not what you need. When you feel so tired but you can't sleep. Stuck in reverse. When you lose something you can't replace. When you love someone it goes to waste. Could it be worse? Lights will guide you home. And ignite your bones. And i will try to fix you. And high up above and down below. When you're too in love to let it go. But if you never try, you'll never know. Just what you're worth.

curiosity has its own reason for existing.

2008-09-12T15:57:00.001+08:00

oh, you should never, never doubt what nobody is sure about.

R.I.P

2008-09-10T16:08:00.003+08:00

Dear Ant,

Im sorry ant. My horrible mummy made me kill you. She screamed at me so loudly i thought my eardrums was going to burst. And it was just you ant. One ant. And she yelled at me as though there were thousands of you. I know all you wanted was food. And i just ate bread and there were teeny bit of crumbs and you wanted it. But my monster of a mummy is so evil she didn't want any ants taking the crumbs not even you ant. I tried to save you. I told my mummy it was just you, an ant. And in return i get yelled and screamed at. Please rest in peace. I hope they're giving you lots of crumbs and all the sweet things up in ant heaven. Goodbye.

Yours truly,

Your friendly human friend.

I See Red.

2008-09-09T23:41:00.004+08:00

This entry is going to be so unreasonable i think im going to laugh when i read it back. It's not every day i get to feel unreasonable but because it is the time of the month where i get irritated at the slightest things, pissed at everyone, and annoyed at every living thing. This is what some people call, PMS, and what i call, perangai-macam-sial mood.

It started off with,
1. I passed someone some things and it ended with me slamming the doors and all i wanted was to have that someone chased me back but sadly, he did not and i got so pissed. This happened at 1.30am. (in other words, it's already 1.30am and i wanted to pretend im in some Hindustan movie having the boy catch the girl and all. The start of my PMS begins.)

2. No calls no nothing. I was so agitated i wanted to throw my phone away. (Because i did not stop to think that the poor boy was driving so how the hell to text message me unless he has so many hands and can multi-task.)

3. I was angry when he did not inform me he was home. I was so angry i fell asleep, so soundly somemore. Actually i fell asleep way before that. hee. So i ended up smsing so rudely. (What i failed to realize is that the person just got home and was about to bathe and all of a sudden he was bombarded by all my messages some of them are not so pleasant and he was exhausted because he just came back from work. And i slept like a pig.)

4. After smsing, i was still angry BUT, i could still sleep. So i fell asleep. So soundly i slept till i did not hear the phone ringing. (There was so many missed calls when i checked my phone. The poor boy slept late because of me and still i failed to see that. Call me blind, my anger consumed me till i couldnt see.)

5. I received a call at 5am and he talked so sweetly it got me so irritated because i thought he wanted to pretend nothing happen so i hung up the phone and i slept. ( I failed to see that he wanted to end this petty fight because really, it was a waste of time.)

6. He called me at 11am to wake me up. (But still i was in the most horrible mood and i talked ever so rudely and hung up without saying goodbye)

7. We met at 2pm. He was late and i was pissed. (He was late because he didnt get enough rest because of me. Still, i was too stubborn to see that. Anyways, he was only like say what, 10 minutes late. haha)

8. I was irritated with my friend because she had me waiting for that dumb call which ended in me not buying that idiotic thing i wanted so much.This further agitated me. (So while he was talking to me trying to clear things up, i walked away.)

9. Things got better then. But when i was over at his place, i did not know what to do so i expected him to talk to me and when he slept, i tell you, i was ready to kill anyone. (I decided to make myself useful instead of feeling furious at him. I helped out in the kitchen then, and things did get better. I had fun. Nervous but fun. I shook so much i cut the lontong so unevenly but anyways that is besides the point.)

10. Because i did not have the mood to talk for no apparent reason whatsoever i kept quiet and expected him to talk and when he did not i got so annoyed i wanted to go home. (He wasnt feeling so well and here i was feeling so pissed at him, secretly cursing him under my breath when all he did was nothing.)

I realized now how unreasonable i've been today. I was always angry when all you wanted to do was make things better. I know i cannot blame it on PMS but really, i was so unreasonable i feel so bad when i recalled the time we spent just now. From the start all you did was talked to me so nicely and here i was raising my voice when you only wanted to make things better. I know nothing i say can make you feel better. But i'll promise you the next time i feel like saying things out of anger i'll bite my own tongue so i wouldnt regret anything i've said later on. Thank you for tolerating me today.You have the most unreasonable annoying irritating girlfriend. It took a lot of patience and you were patient enough i feel so bad i wanna kick my own ass and chokeslam myself. I'm sorry FS. You know i dont mean all the things i said. And i love you for being you. *HUGS TIGHTLY*

this i secretly believe is just awhile. i think im going to start being unreasonable again when he calls. hahahah i think i should hang a sign around my neck that reads, 'handle with care'. Just, bare with me dear boy.

lauging till our faces turn blue

2008-09-08T00:44:00.002+08:00

Tutorial break is finally here.
(:

actions like dagger

2008-09-04T16:55:00.002+08:00

You know sometimes a person does stuff unknowingly and does not realize.
I saw something and it's like a smack in the face.
But im not going to say anything. Im just going to keep mum.

27th August 2008

2008-08-30T03:06:00.005+08:00

Somebody just turned twenty one this twenty seventh.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DZUL ADLY!!
I remembered! I just got the days mixed up lahh. LOL.
oh why not you wish to be less annoying this year?

bunch of bull.

2008-08-27T11:44:00.002+08:00

My friendster horoscope read,
"This is a very good day to get what you want -- so don't be shy about asking for it."
And so i tried it out. Like what like that i tell you!
Not only i didnt get what i wanted, i kena scolding somemore have. Ahhh disappointed!
%*#%#(*^!#)*(^$@^%&*$%&$%@$

remember simple plan?

2008-08-24T19:03:00.002+08:00

MK: You dont put the balloon there. (over at the bbq pit)
MK: Later the balloon explode then you know.

Explode your head. It's burst you idiot.

I cannot believe how timely Saturday was. I bumped into people i didn't want to bump or see. It was so unexpected. The earlier part i meant. Not the later part. I ran away. Literally ran. One moment Zub was talking to me, and the next moment i was gone and she was left talking to air. And everything happened when i was going home. Something terrible happened all in a Saturday. Im starting to hate Saturdays now. How am i supposed to explain, i myself have no idea. Words are all jumbled up and sentences cannot be formed. Yesterday was a very wet day for me. No umbrella no nothing, everything was so unplanned. One moment i was about to take the bus home and suddenly one msg seemed to change everything and i bumped into the ever friendly Mr Bean. We chatted for a while i got a sundae, thank you. I dont know how i ended up at Pasir ris but it was okay. People were friendly it got me breathing normally back. On the way off to meet familiar people, i bumped into another familiar face and got splashed all over with dirty water. Lucky it's you. That hug was very much needed. Thanks for the sms too. I didnt reply as i was half asleep when reading it i thought i was dreaming and i know you'll be reading my blog to check up on me. hehe. You're now so busy with someone lah i think that's why we seldom see you now. You're girly deep down. Lol!

Lying here on my bed with comforter wrapped around me just feels so safe. And for the next week onwards, i cannot see the sun set. I am going to be cooped up in an ever so cool studio i wish my house was something like that with lots of beanbags so i can steal some nap in between. So artsy fartsy. Come watch the play. It's at theatre works, thur, fri and sat. Check sistic for the tickets. There's a matinee show too. See you there.

much love.

because you're wonderful ((:

2008-08-23T02:48:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE LEONG!!!!!

I WANT TO HUG AND KISS YOU BUT YOU'RE TOO BUSY!

YOU'VE BEEN PRETTY BUSY LATELY BUT YOU'LL GET YOUR PRESENT SOON (:

LOVE YOUUUUU!!!!

*BLOWS FLYING KISSES EVERYWHERE*

ties of blood

2008-08-19T14:26:00.018+08:00

And so we spent half of the day blog hopping, gossiping, putting evil thoughts into nat's mind, thinking of ways to make things interesting, dancing in my room, laughing loudly when everyone outside was solemnly reading, catching up.I dont know why but the potato that day was extremely delicious. I couldn't stop putting that fried stuff into my mouth time and again.
We weren't supposed to eat what was displayed but because we were too hungry, each of us took turns going to the buffet table outside and quietly smuggling in cupcakes, puffs and what have yous.

After the kenduri ended, we decided to head off to clarke quay where there's performance with me driving my dad's car. Apparently i was too lazy and parking would be a headache so everyone head home and i went out with my friends hoping to watch a movie but there wasn't any so we went to cine in the hope of playing Nintendo wii so i can smack some balls but we could only get the chamber at 11.10 which was a no no for me because school starts at a freaking 9am tmr. I was super hungry so they decided to go to simps. It's been a lonnggg time since i went there. I ordered maggi goreng but i only ate 1/4 of it and Erzat was telling me the maggi's crying and Ed was being a jerk as usual. I cannot stand that guy. He should seriously just bury himself alive sometimes.

All the best. I know you'll do well.

nonsensical conversations

2008-08-15T21:42:00.014+08:00

Today was a bit different than usual. Took the train to school. Went to cheers to buy myself fresh milk because apparently i was so thirsty. I am always thirsty recently! Bumped into N. We decided to bounce so we'll get seats. Too tired to talk. Slept throughout the journey. Only woke up to say our byes. It's a lucky thing the psp is there to accompany me else i'll be too lazy to wait for anyone.Waited for F. Walked to school together. Today i sat right at the back. Ok so no one was behind me and there was only one person in front of me. But. I felt like i was the last person. I had Jasmine infront of me to block me from Mr Foong's eye. The only highlight of the lesson was eight of us got blindfolded, had to walk shoulder to shoulder and instruct the rest, move around(still blindfolded i tell you!), and turn what looked like a horrible looking piece of wood upside down. And of course, we had to, just had to take some pictures. Ok well, maybe only me so yea.

And because im so bored at home. I decided to walk around the house. Jump around. Wasted electricity. Disturbed everyone online. Felt like picking a fight with a certain someone(haha!). I still cannot believe i send that message. I have never seen so many exclamation mark in one sms before. Hurhur. And when dear FS called, i laughed like nobody's business because i suddenly realize i am so ridiculous. Hahaha indeed sometimes i think i am. Hahahaah And when i heard the sound of footsteps, i thought it was my parents so i switched everything off and hid underneath the table only to realize it is transparent so whatever am i doing i myself have no idea. Well, t'was fun. Thank God it's Friday. I cannot wait for Saturday. ((:

And to Hasni. HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *waves* *kiss* *hugs* :D

yes, it feels safe with you in it.

2008-08-13T22:29:00.003+08:00

Derek to Meredith:
I want to marry you.
I want to have kids with you.
I want to build us a house.
I want to settle down and grow old with you.
I want to die when I'm 110 years old in your arms.
I don't want 48 uninterrupted hours.
I want a lifetime.

Meredith: I can't stop, Cristina, I can't stop seeing Derek. It's not about the sex. It's not about the sex, it's about that moment afterward. The world stops, just feels so safe... So safe. I'm not ready to give that up. Does that make me sad, weak, and pathetic?
Christina: A little bit.

Meredith (voiceover): Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn’t just about being tough. It’s about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don’t have to be tough every minute of every day. It’s okay to let down your guard. In fact there are moments when it’s the best thing you can possibly do… as long as you choose your moments wisely.

I think hollywood writers are brilliant.

Ed's birthday is around the corner and yet, we haven't gotten him a present. Someone suggested nipple whitening cream. I almost choked on my fries. Well, well at least Zai's in charge of that.

Ps// Dear God, please let the days pass by faster so i can have my boyfriend back. Amin.
Thank you for understanding. I love you.

was chemistry too strong it exploded?

2008-08-13T12:12:00.003+08:00

There's this story. I find it interesting.
There's this one kite. It was a bit torn and tattered at the edges but it was a colorful kite.
It was small and not huge like the others. There was nothing special about it at all. One fine day, this wonderful person decided to purchase the kite. The kite questioned itself. It didn't know the reason why. Everyday the two of them would go kite flying. The owner holding on to the string, the kite flying high. Maybe people looked and wondered but there were others that thought they looked good together. Windy or not, rain or shine, cloudy or sunny, the owner never let go of the string. The owner held on tight. The kite in turn did not want to go anywhere. It wanted to fly wherever the owner was. As time passes by, they encountered branches and the kite got stuck. But each time, the owner would climb up and bring the kite back down. The kite appreciate it so much but because it is a kite, it couldn't talk so it showed its appreciation by flying high. It would fly high even if it's not windy. It would try. Just to see the owner's smile.

But slowly, as days grew by, the string became thinner, the hands of the owner became slippery. The kite wanted to fly higher. In the end, the string broke. The kite still flew. The owner just stared. Then the wind came and blew the kite away, further and further away. The owner just looked. Stood and stared. The kite drifted away until it looked like a small dot in the vast sky. Finally, the owner walked away.

So you see, good things don't last. Maybe the kite wanted the owner to run after it. Maybe the owner wanted the kite to fall back to the ground. But sometimes, some things just takes you by surprise. You wouldn't know when the wind will come or when it wouldn't. The only solution left is to either find it back or to just let it go... (:

drifting.

2008-08-12T16:47:00.003+08:00

I am so addicted to this song thanks to Twisterella.
And here's the english translation.

You're so perfect.
To me you're gorgeous.
You make me adore you.
In every step i take i will always think about you.
I can't imagine life without your love.
Don't you ever leave me.
I couldn't face it all alone.
Only with you I can do everything.
You're my blood, my heartbeat.
You're my life, my companion.
Oh love, you're so perfect.
You hold my hand when im down and powerless.
You whisper words to kiss my regrets away...

Thrice. I don't know what to do or how to make things right.
Someone once told me, what is the sharpest thing in the world?
I thought it was the knife. But no, it's isn't.
It's the tongue.
Words can hurt.

Alright off to play soccer with Mark.
track shoes. Mine all torn and tattered how? pumps can or not?
hmmmm

2008-08-10T19:53:00.001+08:00

This is sad. So so sad. Im really pathetic.